Just finished our weekly Poly50 diamokukai cum planning meeting. Although I was recharge by the diamoku we have chanted but I think I feel a pain in my heart.

3 more weeks to Poly50 actual day but our numbers is still not even able to form 2 teams. I can see my trainers are putting a lot of effort to reaching out planning ahead and cracking their coconuts to make this event a great success, but how come it is still the same. I am not dishearted but I feel is me who is to blame.

Sensei words are so true. Everything depend on the leader. Only when the leader is strong, the whole team will move. It all reflected on my institution. Everyone have the heart to do but it is not moving cos I am not moving. I can't expected other to move as I am the only YMD available to support my CIC most of the time and they are looking at me to learn from me and yo guide them foster them. I really feel I am not fit to be a leader after all.

I need some wisdom and courage to forge ahead. I need to do something for the institution. Everything is depend on me for now. I can't let the rest of the IIC down. I need to chant even harder n move even faster.